“life will be better in spring”

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ive just knew ,for all these 15 years wasted,that i am a nerd. :) im proud of that status. its like hey,theres nothing so wrong about it,isnt it? im so confuse why some people that i know arent that good with that terms. some may think nerd is no style but do you guys never had a feeling of wanting to excel? well,maybe the terms 'nerd' is just for somebody who got a spectacles attached to their eyes all time. but hell no,nerd is for scientist and nerd is for somebody who wanted to excel. why so ashamed of what people will be calling you? do they pay you when youve already grown up? do they keep you easy? no. its you yourself have the right to do whats good and wrong. mistakes have both its good and bad. why so ashamed of doing a mistake? well,i got this from one of the successful man who quotes,

ever since in those extended holiday i was intent on brewing a cupcake. yes,at least one. but yeah sure time envy me,so i dont wanna blame the time as for now ,because i was the one who was so malas to do everything. haha. i will be goin to school tmrrw. hope i can cope with their pressure,amin. surely yeah,i still paranoid about that incident. blagh. :/ but still,i wanna put a smile on this face,i wont let them spoil my day.

condition- so far so good today. :) thanks for the girls who pray for my wellness.

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omg! i am very tired of keeping myself busy and one of it is blogging. i seem to be so addicted to this blog. knowing ive changed my blogskins so many times already and it annoys me. :) thats all. bye

incase you guys are wondering where in the hell did i go for these past few days,let me clarify it here. i was busy cleaning up my cousin's new house which happend to be on sunday. while today,i was busy pampering myself with a very casual morning facial in belait. :) it was such an excruciating day. oh noooo.. my homeworks! i need to do it now or else i'll be dead by tmrrw. :/

live a life with no regrets. love your life~ how could you be blue~ loveeee your life.

it seems like ive listening to this song(part of the list) tooo many times already. it's quite romantic wah this song. boh,since when jua ive becoming as teruk as this? :P tuition bores me and it will hit me tomorrow. in assence,sir john has put some kind of task to us about how a basic burglar alarm system work with LDR,my impression at that time was like,why didnt you tell us? it is just wasting our time to search using this very high standard internet,for it didnt give the exact answer that we intent on searching. :{ i miss mj ,i hope he will be buried anywhere,as long as he can find the peace that he was searching when he was still alive. everytime i listen to his song,as if i am tooo close to him. i know that's what most people feel ,let alone his family. i love you mj.

shape of your eyes and your nose,

the way you stare

As if you see, right through to my soul,

It's your left hand and the way

that it's not quite as big as your right,

the way you stand in the mirror

before we go out at night,

Our quiet time,

your beautiful mind,

They're a part of the list.

Things that I miss.

Things like your funny little laugh,

the way you smile or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:

I come up with

something new, every single time

that I sit and reminisce.

The way you sweet smell

lingers when you leave a room,

(you leave a room)

Stories you tell as we lay

in bed all afternoon.

(all afternoon)

I dreamed you now every night

in my mind is where we meet.

(my mind is where we meet)

and when I'm awake

staring at pictures of you asleep.

Touching your face,

invading you space.

They're a part of the list.

Things that I miss.

Things like your funny little laugh,

the way you smile or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:

I come up with

something new, every single time

that I sit and reminisce.

Oooh, and you'll live in my memories forever more I swear.

And you'll live in my memories forever more I swear.

They're a part of the list.

Things that I miss.

Things like your funny little laugh,

the way you smile, or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:

I come up with

something new, every single time

that I sit and reminisce.

5 stars for this song! HAHAHA.

it seems like i have to,i would like to emphasise it here that i have to forget the ordeal that have been happening to me since that dispute happend. im sorry. and i dont need to think about it ever again cos its not that i'd be killed if they dont wanna talk with me. ah whatever. im confuse. gah,it's stressed me out. -

blabla bla so i wonder when will be the time for me to rest in a peaceful surroundings? :/ i hate to know the fact that holiday is way far away from me. like hullo,im cool but i have to have my holiday now! hahaha,for the first week since school has reopened,im feeling extremely tired and sleepless. when will i get enough sleep? when will be the day of my VICTARAY? hahahahaha.



dontya think that biology bug you? i do. and im feeling it now. as much as i love it,theres also a boring side of this subject. just now,had an extra class for bio and i hate the stool lab. they couldnt be bothered to make it comfortable anyway. look at them! no vision at all,improve laa. if you wonder what the hell am i talking about,im referring to brunei people. yeah yeah i kno,i am bruneian too but didnt they mind if they just follow what scientists from the other countries say?this is such a lousy move bruneians. if we can create new things and prove to the world how smarty bruneians are,how nice that feeling got into you. haha i myself also couldnt be bothered to. :B

school wasnt okay. i hate it,get it? it brings me no mood. :(

I'm still all alone

How could this be

You're not here with me

You never said goodbye

Someone tell me why

Did you have to go

And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself

How did love slip away

Something whispers in my ear and says

That you are not alone

For I am here with you

Though you're far away

I am here to stay

But you are not alone

For I am here with you

Though we're far apart

You're always in my heart

But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone

Why, 'lone

Just the other night

I thought I heard you cry

Asking me to come

And hold you in my arms

I can hear your prayers

Your burdens I will bear

But first I need your hand

Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself

How did love slip away

Something whispers in my ear and says

That you are not alone

For I am here with you

Though you're far away

I am here to stay

For you are not alone

For I am here with you

Though we're far apart

You're always in my heart

For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'

And girl you know that I'll be there

I'll be there

You are not alone

For I am here with you

Though you're far away

I am here to stay

For you are not alone

For I am here with you

Though we're far apart

You're always in my heart

For you are not alone

For I am here with you

Though you're far away

I am here to stay

For you are not alone

For I am here with you

Though we're far apart

You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

p/s: i love you michael jackson. for i am here with you,youre still alive.

i wonder,this song does meant to me like,alot.

cos when mikael was still here with us,

like in hollywood,

they kept on blaming him,

neglecting,

like a trash.

but once he was pronounced dead,

people started to realize

how his absence really do bring a lot of sweet memories.

his virtue.

let us pray for him,

may allah be with him always.

this is shit. when i was in singapore back then,I DIDNT FIND THE DISPLAYED SWATCH VERY CUTE NOR DID CAUGHT MY EYES. shit,this is fuck mahn. im currently in a state of dying.. and well of course the remedy fr it is SWATCH! oh my.. the cute lil body with an art that craved on,the attraction of its colour... im really PISSED off. where in the hell did i put my mind when i was in singapore? should i searched for it,i can get it ykno. well,let me story you. sorry for making it more complicated. when im pissed,i complicate my words unintentionally. -_-! i did remember of buying another watch(either it's juicy couture or swatch,i dont really care) in singapore,but time went so fast without me realizing it that i had only one thing to buy left(new watch)! it was day 3 and the final day in singapore,i searched through the (is it marina square or tang?) sorry ive forgotten but either place,i still couldnt find anything special about the displayed swatch watches. and i blame the time for being so fast! buduh. but hey guys,do we have any watches in brunei branding of swatch and juicy couture? if we do,pls do inform me. im dying to buy one!!!!!!!!!!!

today marks the 7627216866th of our holiday time. hahhaa,i was wondering whether we should put on our face mask or not when school reopened. :| im double-crossed with my holiday time. like ive wasted it on doing not much of my revision. had i known what is it that's gonna be out on the question papers,i would definitely dont have that much of my worry going. since this week is our extended week of our holiday,my mom wouldnt want to go anywhere esp to the mall. as it ladens so much crowd inside. :\ triple-crossed!!!!!!!!! hahahhaa..ok,the riding lesson had been going fine this morning. i did canter only which makes everything looks the same as before.. boring~ yeaah i know,almost everything went bleak for this holiday so far. :((((((((((

and so i decided to just use this below picture on my previous post as my dp for my blog. hahaha,it's nice. so that it scares the others off. :P i had my tennis session with my lil brother just now and i am very exhausted to hell. but i can see the changes tho. a few inches on my belly has reduced  . a FEW INCHES only. what the hell is goin on with me gadd? im too worried about my figure. gahhh,stop it.





ahh boring.. no jalan jalan. no shopping. but i'll exercise later. hoho.. emaciated me. that's what i'd say to the treadmill later. wouldnt it be nice if i just can get to my normal body figure by just doing one exercise? or in a way that the cells can cooperate with me by whisking away some of the excess fats from my body? how nice would it be. just imagine that. hoho.. so yeah,considering the fact that the holiday has been extended to another one week of break,my dad has brusquely(well not so plg :P) ADVICED me to start my work out,with my granny. oh god pa,i hate you. hahahaha. ok,for my late dinner later,let's just pray so that my mom would bring something savoury that could open instantly my closed appetite at the moment.