I really wonder how you feel on these nights so alone

“life will be better in spring”

:) lumps. fat lumps

June 30, 2009 || 2:34 AM

it dawn on me that i need to work out even more often especially during these 3 weeks of holiday including the one week that has been extended. im afraid that when school has already reopen later,i'd have to lug out all of the lards around and inside my body as i walk. and the students would definitely will notice the changes. hahahaha :0 BESIDES that,i would likely to make a change as i am very tired of them trying to comment on my body figure. but i could take it in a positive way you see,as ive been living with them for many years already.

oh yeah,i find the jonas brothers band are disgusting. when they sing,their voices sounded as if it got stucked in between their throat. hahahahhahaa.

quotes.

June 29, 2009 || 9:22 PM

my life quotes for today:

" the hates that someone may have in heart will lose its chance to see the

exquisity of life"

meaning:

we do not have to waste our time hating someone or somebody in order for them to change but loving them as they are,as if you yourself are intact enough to hate them.

think of it.

it is better than nothing

|| 1:25 AM

i bet all of you out there esp the students of brunei have already known the fact that our school holiday has been extended to 6th of july. HUGE YEAY for that! hoho :O and also for those who have their tuition going this week wont be attending any as they are also closed. a big relieve for that all of you! hahahaha,wont be attending any for this weekk~~~ wheww. im superbly excited yknow. except that i am very ill right now. let alone the swine flu thing,im sure i wont be having any. hahaha. ok,i have to stop right this minute as this headache becoming so massive that i sure will fall if i dont stop. so chao happy people! :D have a nice one week holiday !

the legend has finally gone.

June 25, 2009 || 11:09 PM

may you rest in peace.

carry on.

|| 7:23 AM

i think ive already gone a wee mad

for reminiscing the past about how exciting it was

having yourself there

is such a sad thing.

o-m-g.

should i stay there,i wud prolly living my life to the fullest already.

stucked at brunei is no good. haha

they say brunei have no h1n1,

peaceful and so forth,i still cant accept the fate that im actually living here.

but heyyy brunei have got 11 cases already regarding the swine flu thing.

i hope im not the one that is affected nor the one that was in the same flight as me.

or else we'll all be quarantined for hours!

or for a week -.-!

hahahaha.

how funny it is after knowing somebody will be back in brunei from affected countries,some of the ppl wouldnt dare to get near with the person that has just came back. haha

my mom did having the same kind of situation.

hey its not that my mom is affected!

hahaha,mentel~

duh~ i was planning to get some peace(watching movies) on this saturday before school starts.

*fingers crossed!*

hoho. o.O

hullo!

|| 7:07 AM

incase you might have been wondering(well,some of you might be),my previous post about how i was intangibly hurt by someone wasnt actually for my classmates nor anyone. it was just a girl from saint angela who used to be my frenemy before. HAHA! what on earth do i have to remember her? oh god.

pm and dpmmfc

June 24, 2009 || 6:40 AM

in addition to my fling in singapore was that i saw prince mateen and the dpmm fc players(some of them) in changi international airport,singapore. hahahahha xD i wasnt all excited when he walked past me. i was like ' oh,this is the real look of prince mateen.. no wonder.' ok,chao!

-edited.

you give me somethin,that makes me feel so right~

|| 4:52 AM

singapore is a very amazing country,evrywhere you go you will hear every noises by the car,the traffic and so on .

my first day in singapore- the four of us arrived there early in the morning,around 10+ somethin. the taxis drove me crazy like hell ,they were very fast. i mean the driver.. ive never seen such in brunei before which drove me a lil bit crazy whilst in the car at that moment. xD not sakai or kebaruan but it's true. its not that ive never been to any before but this one is very different. well,alot of changes were seen in singapore esp the people. they were very friendly nowadays. unlike the one before. ok,first day in singapore: after doing the checked in and stuff,we stayed in the hotel for just a few mins and after deciding which place to go first,we decided to stroll around the orchard road where there,i found a lot of fun places to hang out at(if only brunei had such place...). i bought my first big gulp at the 7 eleven! hahahaha.

then we decided to get a taxi and headed to a place where the store sells horse equipments and stuff. initially we were indeed very dissapointed after finding out that the store was close. cos according to the taxi driver,that store is only opened at the morning and closed at 12pm. i was deeply dissapointed and deep in this heart only god knows how many curse words i hurtled out to the stupid operating hours. hahaha..ok,after that thank god my mom did have another horse store to buy our stuff which is at pasir ris. and thank god they are opened! hahha but we had to wait for another 2 hours which is approximately at 2pm for that place to open. while waiting,we ordered four nasi lemaks which was deliciously great! haha..unlike in bsrc where there was nothing except for the two training places! xD here's the pics while we were there:

ok my hair is kinda messy but dont bother

but actually this pic was taken candidly wah. hahaha

after waiting for two hours,

the shop pun opned! hahahaha

then i bought this.

haha.

the whole package: breeches,boots,whip,helmet,leather gloves cost a fortune tho.

around $300.

but my mom said it's okay. so yeah. hahaha

but it doesnt end here. my lil bro also wanted the same. so the whole amount is $700.

which is kind of okay,said my mom.

ahahahhaa thanks ma.

second day- went shopping! hahahaa and went to sentosaaaaaaaaaa. yahooo. went to the cable car which i dont have a guts to do it again. hahaha

at the melion

i was actually holding the whitish-yellow snake's body at that time which is unforgetable..

but sorry no pic was taken at that moment cos my mom didnt want to approach the snake. she didnt even want to catch a glimpse of the snake either. haha

duhh. i miss the moment...

thats all i think. too lazy to upload lagi and stuff.

have a very nice day ppl.

wah,i seem to be so hard now.

|| 1:38 AM

bored.

boring friend.

HAHAHAHA.

INTANGIBLY HURT BY SOMEBODY.

BUT

it's long long ago.

where friendship is like a trash to her.

cant forgive. she betrayed.

SINGAPORE and today.

June 23, 2009 || 6:27 AM

arghh. it was a hell lot of tiring day! well,i just have finished my malay coursework. chemistry,maths(i dont know if there is :D HOPE nada.) and poa await. i hope it doesnt take that much of my holiday time. hell what. i am still on my holiday. we do! we dont have to worry about school will be re-opened soon. let's unwind and listen to the music,i believe jazz can help you easing the stress off your head. haha. and the post about my days in singapore will be posted up soon. duh~ i miss that hectic sound of traffic and the cars. i miss that moment. how i wished i could live there. well,not alone. prolly with just my parents staying along cos they would WILLINGLY play the part as my money supplier. hahaha. ok,thats all peupol! i wanna finish my another malay work today. so yeah,chaooo as for now!

:DDD

baaaaccckk.

June 22, 2009 || 11:46 PM

HEY.

I AM BACK.

im hopin you to sing along,aaaaaaaaa~

June 18, 2009 || 5:03 AM

i find my previous post was kind of lame. bidaaaaa in other words. gaaaah,i dont have a clue why my days seem to be so boring.. and my post is kind of tedious. hoping for some other ideas to come in. but they never seem to come. so yeah,instead of just neglecting this blog,at least im writing somethin. well,its the computer who is writing. so yeah,tomorrow is friday and the next day after friday is saturday which i'll be off to singapore and ENJOYYY. hohoooooooo. eh i like this lagu from daniel powter-best of me. i love his voice.how i wished i could hav that type of voice. as much as i hate singing,i still value music as the bestest in life.

how fun it is?

June 15, 2009 || 11:01 PM

how fun it is to have a boyfriend? nothing right? except for having a lust on something,thats it. unless you are pious enough to not feeling anything except love.but love is lust. remember that. i'd love to have this and this type of boyfriend but actually this is the problem,im not interested. as nora put it,im still a juvenile. so i dont feel anything when im all alone. bla bla bla. hahahaha,i think im getting more exposed to this kind of world which makes me kind of wanting to have a boyfriend,but to tell you the truth,if i love somebody,i dont feel like anything. i just wanted to love him but im not interested in anything nor do i wanted him to know. that's why i feel like im the most strangest person in this world. im not that cute nor pretty,but im choosy yknow..choosy is just for the people who are stunning! memilih nya urg brunei. hahahahahaha.

so today my dad's gone off to work in the early morning. as usual,he's leaving for two weeks. ok this is the most sadest part,im beginning to know my dad better and love him the way i love my mom but two weeks for us to get together isnt enough mahn.. :'( but i know,its not just me who feel like this. there are also children who their fathers work offshore didnt get that much of their father's attention. so remember folks,spend your time with your family rather than with your friends,love them not just by their money but their love to you. though it's difficult to express it,throw your ego away. and start to make them realize you still value them as your gold,your soul. not as a thrash or a statue.

k thaaaaats all. haha

sooryy if i make you cry(if there is).

i like you.

|| 4:19 AM

hey.

if you ask me what im up to right now.

right in this night,

im up to nothing!

i am bored up to the maximum.

hahahaha

up to

up to.

so heres my latest post.

today i was supposed to have my class at 4 30 but i ended up going back home instead,

the power had been cut down.

IM SUPERBLY excited.

hahahahhahaa

actually the class had not been cancelled.

it was me who decided not to study in the scorching condition.

sir john was all in his full enthusiasm to teach but hell no sir,

im not up for it.

so after that,my dad and i went back home.

oh yeah.

otw back,we as in my dad and i were entertained by the voice of the dj and the whimsical students of smsa who were at that time interviewed by the dj,answering every questions from the dj with their full cavalier answers,laughing like a maniac.

i wasnt entertained actually but my dad did.

hahahahaha

he actually doesnt know how to judge people by their voice,but i know.

hoho.

sorry daddddddd. xD

okay,lets just get back to the good news,

MY USU is finally having a babaaaaaaay!!!!! ahahahahaha

im extremely happy+extremely excited.

the word baby excites me. though i dont actually like how excruciating my ears feel when a baby cries.

but i think this one is gna be a different one.

*big smile*

:D:D:D

that's all ah sja?

bai.

countdown:4 days left

hafiz and aizzul. hhahah

June 14, 2009 || 11:54 PM

my berapa hari ex and HIM! hahaha

eh i am a culprit cos ive stolen this man's pic from his fb. hahahaha

oh god.

|| 11:35 PM

hahahha. this is the guy that ive my crush on.

he's a friend of my kaka mirah.

omg!

am i dallying?

or am i truely inlove?

ok heres the good sign that he might have fallen inlove with me(haha perasan-.-!):

* he always say hi whenever i go online.

*he always say crazy things like im his good ol'friend

*he told me he might go to uk nanti and something unusual about him when he told me that.

whatever thing it is,who cares?

omg guys.

is this love?

ive never felt such a nice feeling like this.

if it hadnt been hafiz who is his friend,i might have not know him.

please god. answer this love prayer just this time.

oh guys,i am SO PATHETIC.

jiwang in other word.

yao.

June 12, 2009 || 5:28 AM

ok,I GIVE UP! i am very tired of searching through all of the stupid blogskin just for the sake of wanting to change my blog theme to a new one. =( ok,i know i am just wasting my time and an hour had already wasted! what a bummer. i was planning to read my book but i ended up searching for an unnecessary things. and we're not going to bandar tmoro. cos my adi is goin to be fully busy with his RIADAH in his skulah ugama. kacau lah si syahmi ani :/ and guess what?? c YONG 5sc2 atu ia tuition jua arh tmpat flying colours ah. baru td wh ia start. duh~

love comes around. ily singapore. excitedddddd.

June 11, 2009 || 9:04 PM

i am so excitedly EXCITED. how many more days for that day to come? hmm,about 7 days more for me to pack things up. i decided to buy a backpack tmrw,if we go to bandar jua lah. cos i dont want to plight my day in singapore. it's kinda susah if i bring my small bag along cos it's not brunei ykno.. for another plan,maybe in december we will be going to hongkong disneyland to chill out. yeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaay. but unconfirmed yet lah. but still under our planning trip. ok,for singapore,we're goin to stay there for just 3 days due to some other reason my mom cannot avoid,WORKING ofcourse. but anyhooo,i dont care,ive alot of things to buy.. weeee....... excited yo. ive been waiting of this day to come. and also, only my mom,my grandma,my adik and myself sja jalan. cos the others seem not so interested about it. tau lahh... laki2,they knew that we just go there to shop. nothing else. bye!

YEEEEEEEEWW

|| 1:29 AM

i think this is my very last post for today since ive posted up so many things since this morning. as i flicked through the borneo bulletin's i stumble upon this very flabbergasting news about a DAD who has safely given a birth to a baby boy. what an amazing thing to say huh? this man was actually a woman back then but she seemed to be so interested in becoming a man. so she changed everything except for her female rproductive organ. she decided to keep it thoough she already become a man. what a story. xD

adam,kris and holiday.

June 10, 2009 || 9:19 PM

it is impromptu for me to know adam is a homo. yes he is! he told the rolling stone mag about it. how he proudly admitted about it and joked about how he used to like kris allen back then but forgotten him after knowing that kris allen has actually got a wife already and is actually straight . i was like O-M-G. no wonder he didnt get number 1 for american idol. well,maybe its not too late for me to congratulate kris allen for winning the 'game'. okay forget about it for a mo. i just dont have anything to do today. i hate to do homework. so i decided to do nothing. hahahhahaa xD I AM BORED. eh it is actually very typical of a teenger like me for saying that kan? especially during holiday. gahhhd. hahahhaa

my dream guy. AHAHAHO~

|| 6:19 AM

i normally wouldnt like to speak about this nor do i like to make it as a topic for every of my conversation esp with my friend. but i would like to meet somebody who is not perfect throughout but enough to make me feel ive been completed perfectly. ykno... that kind of thing. hahahahhahaahahahaa im embarrased actually but what can i do? this thing is very common to the very gatal girl like me. whOOOOt? hahahahhahahahahahaaa. maybe some of my friends are used to my jokes of marrying a prince.ok guys,let me tell you a thing. actually i dont care to whom am i going to be paired with. but sometimes my feeling is variable and i need a perfect guy just like a prince to lock me down. hahahahahaahahhaahhhahaa apakan -.-! ok i need to stop before i go any further enough to make you die of boredom. ive been gaining weight and i need to lose a few pounds just for the sake of wanting/buying a new hot attire! i really love fashion but due to the unpleasant body figure,im becoming a girl who likes to use the same old attire through the month. yeah,unpleasant kan? my perfection doesnt go well in this life. so i would like to change,at least a bit to attract the boys. OMG! IS THIS ME? omgomg. usually im not like this but somehow i AM now! chao.

READ ME.

June 09, 2009 || 5:43 AM

and so,yes it has been confirmed that i may be leaving to singapore for just a few days nextweek. :) big YEAYYY to that. hahaha. i have tried my very best not to express the huge excitement in me after hearing the good news. cos after doing a lot of calculations,ive just found out that ive been in this house,trapped in a stressful moment of my life,doing my revision,for about two months already. except for going back and forth everyday to school lah. hahaa.

hmm.. i dont think i like animals anymore cos after doing a LOOOOOT of thinking,theyre just a nuisance.

but after doing alot of thinking jua,i still have some empathy towards them but sometimes they can easily get on my nerve. like E-V-E-R-Y-D-A-Y.......

>0-0<

June 08, 2009 || 11:24 PM

i really love blogging. i cant tell how much i love you bloggy.

i really love how youve captured my heart.

lame -.-!

i love today.

maybe due to something that happend just this morning made me feel like this.

oohhhh,thank god.

the presentation went out quiet well actually except for my voice-like-shivering part. hahaha

ok,exam has finally over.

:=)

alot of things happening lately and god,i love you and i'll always do.

my love tyou wont die though ive achieved my success.

eh i was wondering,why it seems so proper if we use english as our language for blogging?

why not malay? i mean fully-malay.

you see..

it's like we've betrayed our mother language.

dont you think so?

hahahaha.

|| 12:48 AM

ive been trying to talk good. i let myself being hurt,i call myself a jerk for doing that stupid mistake. i let myself being talk about. i aint perfect friend. but who am i to say such things to the perfect friends like you guys?..

mating. ops dont get your head off the hook.

June 07, 2009 || 12:12 AM

since it's like a biology week for me,let me share with you some of the info that you might get your interest in. :p

ok. i bet some of you do nurture cats,dnt you?

have you ever observe them when they're mating?

especially the male one.

for the cats,

they'll show their greatness by fighting with the other males in order to get the female's attention.

BUT!

some of our cute creatures like the penguins and the peacocks have their own gentle way in order to tackle their partners.

the penguins will dance before mating.

while the peacocks will fan out their beautiful tail-feathers and shake them off just to show off at the females,well... before mating ofcourse. hahahaha

ooooo

June 05, 2009 || 5:12 AM

make mistake,say sorry and no worry.

love to the bits eh?

|| 4:50 AM

hellooooo :) just going to keep up with the readers out there. ive been in a huge massive distress-ful situation these days. yeah you're right. everything is about exam. no one ever like exam. except for the one who really wanted to show off their skills. hahahaha nadalah. two more papers to go. biology p1 and p2. of which i'll be walking along the corridor to the hall all by myself. no one ever wanted to be my friend,i know. but it never did bug me,well,there was but not as for now,alhamdulilah. ive been trying to be good in school. i'll try to keep myself busy. i hope deep inside my heart there wud never be any that would turned out and create a huge mess with me,i hope that god will always be there for me. anywhere and anytime provided that i always be there for HIM too. there's this deep feelin inside me that urging me to blurt everything out. but nowadays,friend itself cannot be trusted anymore. yes,i do know a friend that has been devoted throughout the dispute last month. i adore her. i really do and i'll try to be like her and she's a role model to me. :) thanks friend. i will never be left in the lurch if you are around. and pls guys,take note,this is not a gay post. hahahahahhahaha

omaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaygad

June 04, 2009 || 10:28 PM

you are very hot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! help me. this guy is a bugger! hahaha omg. omg omg. okayyy,it seems that i cant stop saying omg cos he deserveeeees it babaaaay!

henseeeeeeem kan?

|| 10:15 PM

hello to qia. hello to the world. hahahahaa,qia youre the only person who view this blog so i put your name here. no problemo yeah? ive espunged the previous posts which is written like a hell lot boring. i find it boring. so let it be. hahaha,ehhhhh.... i think kan instead of prince mateen,i really do have a crush on this malaysian prince,prince ismail idris of johor. HALLELUJAH!!!!!!!! hensem yo. way more hot compared to our princes. hahahahahaa okay,im gettin a lil bit cuhrazaaay here so i chao first! i'll update whenever i feel like ive got the story already okaaaaaaay????????????????????????????????????????????? :PPPP OKAY,stop. hahaha too many question mark already.

he's lovely. where can i get a man like this? none. dreaming~